I feel guilty that I ended my relationship almost two years ago. I feel this guilt all the time, sometimes it goes away then it come back to hunt me.
I can't even tell anyone (or almost anyone) the reasons, it's not something people would expect or understand. And if I do tell, I'm just left in confusion and shock and I don't understand it. I don't really understand who I was then. Who I am now. I left thinking "now I know what I want" but then it all shifted and I am here, lost and confused.
And he is very hurt and even more shocked and hates me now for ruining his life. I have a lot of sui thoughts because of this guilt.