I don't want to take this off topic but I was really interested in what you said mostlylurking. I am still trying to find answers to why I cannot speak in my sessions sometimes. I do have language, as I can write, but my voice disappears and it isn't until I have a pen and paper that the thoughts can be extracted from me in a comprehendable way. Without it, I just sit there with fireflies dancing through my brain. This is one thing to which I genuinely don't have any real answers. I have no idea why I cannot speak.