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Originally Posted by jacky8807
I just don't think a once before addict will stop at a few Xanax. that's the nature of the addiction. you just cant ever go back
dealing with addicts close to home is confusing. when my stepbrother became one he became another person entirely. he stole and stole and stole from all of us. money and things that can never be replaced. he used and abused us daily. I began to hate him from my gut. I was a wreck every time he came to the house. you had to hide everything. he would pass out then wake up . by the end i was a wreck as were many others
fast forward to family intervention. he got clean and is a better person now than he was even before the drugs. he has changed from the inside out and is amazing.
but in the process he lost his wife his house and respect and many friends .
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I'm so sorry Jacky. I have many stories like this myself. I'm a sucker though as I've never hated any of them. I loved them and hated their disease. It's probably pretty obvious I'm a codependent....or at minimum a bleeding heart. I can't help it, I was born this way truly. I live in constant terror currently from the addict I have in my life. Fear of getting the call that they are dead, fear they will injure my family, myself or a stranger, fear they will steal more than they already have from us, fear of the people they have brought around. It's more than fear, it's terror. Yet still, my heart breaks more for them than it does myself. I'm really sick and I know it. I plan to get help for this, I promise.