I have very little energy to do things, even necessary ones. I think I feel hopeless, and that I will never find a way out of this misery and loneliness. I go out just once a week to the Church. Other than that, I don't go out or speak with anyone. I even don't talk to my parents, and I currently live with them. I feel very low to even talk and move. I just want to sit down, and stay there for hours, alone, because it is the best place I know. Everyday I wish I just die. All my life was a waste and useless. I don't deserve to live. I don't belong to life. I feel life hasn't been fair to me, but life isn't fair. Yes, some people find a way out, but not all of them do, and we only hear from those who overcome their struggles, while others die with their secret struggles. Anyway, I don't want or expect things to change or wait for an advice. I just wanted to vent because I feel very depressed and have no one to talk to, as it is usually the case.