No Motivation

I have very little energy to do things, even necessary ones. I think I feel hopeless, and that I will never find a way out of this misery and loneliness. I go out just once a week to the Church. Other than that, I don't go out or speak with anyone. I even don't talk to my parents, and I currently live with them. I feel very low to even talk and move. I just want to sit down, and stay there for hours, alone, because it is the best place I know. Everyday I wish I just die. All my life was a waste and useless. I don't deserve to live. I don't belong to life. I feel life hasn't been fair to me, but life isn't fair. Yes, some people find a way out, but not all of them do, and we only hear from those who overcome their struggles, while others die with their secret struggles. Anyway, I don't want or expect things to change or wait for an advice. I just wanted to vent because I feel very depressed and have no one to talk to, as it is usually the case.

I won't offer you any advice. Just want to lend you support and let you know that there are many people on this forum and the bipolar forum who face this problem with motivation as well. I understand how you feel. I just wanted to help you feel a little less alone.