I admirer people who can open up and talk about their problems, about themself. I think it takes a great courage to do that, great strength.

I know for me, I can't do that. My avoidancy personnality disorder stops me. I know even if I decide to take my life away I will not go to the er, I know I will not ask for help, I know I will die.

Lucky for me, over the years, I have learned what I can do for myself when I am at the end of my rope. But I dont know if I will always be able too. Maybe.

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