I'm sorry for any negativity I spew.....I'm doing very badly the past few days. My monthly is killing me. I used to have periods with minimal pain, when girls complained about theirs I didn't get it. Now mine are worse than childbirth and I had natural childbirth without screwsming once. I feel this need and urge to PUSH just like with childbirth. It's so heavy and awful and it effects my mood so bad. I hurt so bad I'm in tears that won't stop. When will this madness end? I can't go on like this and my doctor is dragging his feet on finding a solution. I won't make it if something is not done. I took one of my husbands ativan and hope it will help. the family stress I have is killing me too....and all I get is judgement from people who pretend to care. They have no clue. I wish all this on them. Just one day in my shoes and they'd shut the heck up. The fat old white men who hold all the money and rule the world ensure that people like me get screwed until they die. Make euthanasia legal already! I want off this ride of horrors.