[fishin fool]

Naynay go for it, sit by the ocean, breath in the salt air.
There is nothing better in the world to soothe the soul.
Road trips are always fun. Enjoy.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

So I am thinking of going on a solo road trip, maybe drive up to New England, maybe to Maine. Idk. Was gonna just pick some random shiit to explore along the way. I really just want to drive and end up wherever but I should probably book a room since it is a holiday weekend. Or maybe I will let fate decide?

The idea of singing along to the radio while driving somewhere, stopping at truck stops just bc I can, And then sitting on a balcony drinking coffee and reading a book looking at the ocean sounds nice. Seeing street signs that say "thickly settled". Eating lobster rolls...Keep fighting the good fight.

Sounds like a fantastic plan. If you end up in Boston or Maine eating lobster rolls, think of those of us less fortunate than yourself. Best app for last minute hotel rooms is Hotel Tonight. I've gotten $400 rooms for less than $100 using it. Not always such good deals, but it's consistently one of the best value options out there.

Personally, my weekend entails ending up on a Revolutionary War battlefield and grilling burgers. Not at the same time.

[Sunflower123]

So I easily found my sleep medication this morning that I couldn't find last night so no sleep. I feel depressed and in pain....not S but don't know how to move on. Niece's (daughter of my hostile sister) graduation and party tomorrow, so much to do before I go to Florida on the 3rd for two weeks (added pressure) and daughter will be gone for most of next week starting today. Not doing well and not feeling optimistic of pulling out of it. I don't like this. To bring more joy, hostile sis is coming by today to tell everyone what to wear to graduation.

[Moose72]

Well I got n3 off to school!!

[Sunflower123]

The pool does open today. I could just say to h*** with it all and go float in the sunshine on my noodle.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Well I got n3 off to school!!

When is his/her school year over?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

When is his/her school year over?

Two or three more weeks I think. (N1 is male. N2 is female. N3 is male)

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Two or three more weeks I think. (N1 is male. N2 is female. N3 is male)

Got it. We must start earlier here...we were out Tuesday.

I am back from the hospital.

well, I was actually back on tuesday but today has been the first day i've been well enough to really post.

I am still very week, and very depressed.

but I know I have a lot of catching up to do (on my computer, TV, around the house, with friends) I am trying to do all that to take my mind off it all

had a pretty severe pannic attack today, but was eventually able to control it

I am actually starving. I can't wait for my food tonight

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

I am back from the hospital.

well, I was actually back on tuesday but today has been the first day i've been well enough to really post.

I am still very week, and very depressed.

but I know I have a lot of catching up to do (on my computer, TV, around the house, with friends) I am trying to do all that to take my mind off it all

had a pretty severe pannic attack today, but was eventually able to control it

I am actually starving. I can't wait for my food tonight

Welcome back I hope you catch up on everything and start feeling better soon.

[hopeless2015]

At work and there are only about 5 of us here, kinda creepy in the hallway with all the closed doors. They will be letting us go home early this afternoon though. Feeling pretty good, concentration is good so hopefully I will get a lot done. Hugs to all!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

So I easily found my sleep medication this morning that I couldn't find last night so no sleep. I feel depressed and in pain....not S but don't know how to move on. Niece's (daughter of my hostile sister) graduation and party tomorrow, so much to do before I go to Florida on the 3rd for two weeks (added pressure) and daughter will be gone for most of next week starting today. Not doing well and not feeling optimistic of pulling out of it. I don't like this. To bring more joy, hostile sis is coming by today to tell everyone what to wear to graduation.

I am sorry you are feeling depressed. This makes it more difficult to deal with family expectations, especially if there is even a little hostility.

(((((( Jennifer ))))))


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

I am back from the hospital.

well, I was actually back on tuesday but today has been the first day i've been well enough to really post.

I am still very week, and very depressed.

but I know I have a lot of catching up to do (on my computer, TV, around the house, with friends) I am trying to do all that to take my mind off it all

had a pretty severe pannic attack today, but was eventually able to control it

I am actually starving. I can't wait for my food tonight

Good to hear from you! Glad you are okay!
I've been wondering about you.

WC

[xRavenx]

I am feeling more and more depressed, but I don't want to end back up on a medication where the side effects make me feel even worse. I haven't been getting a good night sleep and still feel pain. Also, I've been really critical of myself. I keep thinking about when this will all be over with.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I am feeling more and more depressed, but I don't want to end back up on a medication where the side effects make me feel even worse. I haven't been getting a good night sleep and still feel pain. Also, I've been really critical of myself. I keep thinking about when this will all be over with.

Do you need a med for sleep and/or for pain?
Are you able to get out for distraction from your thoughts?

(((((( xRavenx ))))))


WC

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Do you need a med for sleep and/or for pain?
Are you able to get out for distraction from your thoughts?

(((((( xRavenx ))))))


WC

Thank you I have pain pills, but they mix horribly with Seroquel, unless I really space them out. I'm going to call my pdoc to see if she has any suggestions. Today, I have a doctor's appointment. I'm hoping I will find out something that could be helpful at this appointment.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Thank you I have pain pills, but they mix horribly with Seroquel, unless I really space them out. I'm going to call my pdoc to see if she has any suggestions. Today, I have a doctor's appointment. I'm hoping I will find out something that could be helpful at this appointment.

Yes, I had read about that drug interaction. Scary!
I'm glad you have an appt today and I hope it's helpful.
You've had a lot to deal with lately.

WC

[scatterbrained04]

Day 3 of increased Trileptal dose, and I'm not feeling so well today. Lightheaded, spacey, nauseous, tired. Kind of feel better mentally, but I might have to step this back down a notch.

I somehow managed to spend nearly $50 since Wednesday. I'll be broke between now and the 7th. I spent the money on food. That's been my go to since I can't spend money on electronics very easily. Still stressed about the job interview I had earlier in the week. I had some follow up questions that I submitted to HR and they responded back right away. After that, I have not heard anything. It seemed like they wanted to move pretty quickly on the position. It may be a case of where I looked good on paper and interviewed poorly by not answering questions quite the way I thought I was coming across.

I'm sorry for any negativity I spew.....I'm doing very badly the past few days. My monthly is killing me. I used to have periods with minimal pain, when girls complained about theirs I didn't get it. Now mine are worse than childbirth and I had natural childbirth without screwsming once. I feel this need and urge to PUSH just like with childbirth. It's so heavy and awful and it effects my mood so bad. I hurt so bad I'm in tears that won't stop. When will this madness end? I can't go on like this and my doctor is dragging his feet on finding a solution. I won't make it if something is not done. I took one of my husbands ativan and hope it will help. the family stress I have is killing me too....and all I get is judgement from people who pretend to care. They have no clue. I wish all this on them. Just one day in my shoes and they'd shut the heck up. The fat old white men who hold all the money and rule the world ensure that people like me get screwed until they die. Make euthanasia legal already! I want off this ride of horrors.

[cmorales]

Dr. Feelgood cancelled yet another appointment. This appointment was the rescheduled appointment from when they cancelled my last appointment and now it'll be 2 effing weeks before I can get in. The office called literally as I was getting ready to leave for the appointment. I desperately need to get my med situation squared away. I was hoping to get back on an AD and bring my Abilify back up. I was beginning to come out of a moderate agitated depression the last few days but now... now who knows what's gonna happen. Maybe (hopefully) I will continue to come out of it, maybe I won't. I don't know. All I do know is that I am pissed off. Their office folk need to get their sht together.

[Sunflower123]

I'm feeling much better now. I had a good old fashioned cry with my mom. She was gentle, understanding and just listened. My daughter came home for lunch and I got teary eyed and she was the same way. Both really helped. Thanks for the well wishes. And my sister texted me she loved me. Miracles indeed.

[cashart10]

Her face at first just ghostly, turned a whiter shade of pale. She said "there is no reason and the truth is plain to see."

Whiter Shade of Pale ~ Procol Harum

I'm "feeling a little sea sick" but "the crowd called out for more".

It's me. Putting on a show. Not sleeping well. Lots of crying. Lots of unproductively. Wanting to die. Sad that my pdoc won't put me on an anti depressants. Not sure what to do. After June 2nd, I'll be seeing newish therapist twice a week per my Pdoc. Not sure how to cope in the interim.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm feeling much better now. I had a good old fashioned cry with my mom. She was gentle, understanding and just listened. My daughter came home for lunch and I got teary eyed and she was the same way. Both really helped. Thanks for the well wishes. And my sister texted me she loved me. Miracles indeed.

All of my love sweet lady! I'm blessed with a supportive family like yours. They are hard to come by.

I'm Sorry you are feeling badly Cash. I loved the poetry Cash. The first poem reminded me of myself for some reason, cause my face has changed, when I look in the mirror and I'm haunted by what I see. My skin seems to be getting darker though, even though it never really sees the sun. I sit on my patio but it's covered and enclosed with screens so I feel like I get the sun, but don't really. But it's m pretty darned pale and I look like wretched ghost version on myself. Like bride of Frankenstein blonde hair. It stands straight I keep it wrapped in a bun though. My friend recently had a horrible experience and she said she looked in the mirror and her face looked haunted, and I relate very much to that. Mine too and I try to avoid looking at it right now but it I put on a little makeup which I've done a couple times recently I can make it look better. I just hate looking in the mirror.

Sorry to go on and on, I just felt a connection to that poem and I'm guessing perhaps you do too.