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Originally Posted by Hopingtrying
Mc2ed,
I must admit your words are fascinating to me. They paint a picture but have few details but so much longing. You say you have a brain injury. Are you mobile? If you are comfortable speaking about it, I just wonder what your situation is. I was in intensive care for a few days but I know you must have gone through so much more but perhaps you don't remember much of it...
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I am mobile...doctors think I am a miracle....they thought I was paralyzed from the neck down...because of injury at brain stem...I have four shattered compressed vertebrae lower in my spine...also amazed those injuries did not cause paralyzation....I am thankful for that more than anyone could imagine...
I do have great limitations from that though....I spent months in the hospital...and many many many more months in a hospital bed in my home....my memory loss...again...surprised I remember my accident...clearly...yet most of my life was gone from memory....disconnect to emotions and emotional connections to family.....the history of them was gone....enough years have passed that there are now memories...in that accumulation of years....I have swirling gaps...of not remembered...years and then some remembered........I have had decades of therapy...in learning to think...and dealing too with the issues that rose from brain injury...I had to learn to process.....I have trouble thinking....trouble with recognition of the reality of others.....that causes problems.....
I try to be aware...in the present.....I often struggle to understand what I am feeling....in the way of placement of experience....it makes more sense to me....when I can see my thoughts...and read them...and sometimes in the sharing....others lead me to understanding in a way I did not before....it tethers me to a point of reference..?....I do not know how to explain...
Thank you for your words to me....