Hi there, Heyitseli. Those are a lot of burdens to bear. When you're feeling bad about yourself, it's very hard to get out of it. And you don't have friends and you're in a foreign country. It's really difficult for you. You need to take it one small step at a time. Do you have a job? Why not just try smiling at people and saying good morning or something like that. Don't expect too much. Just look upon it as an exercise you are doing to build up your social skills. Don't worry if they don't say hello back. Try someone else. Or say hello again next time. Just decide that you will smile at people and say hello if you can. You don't have to say hello to everyone. Just one or two people and build up from there. Just take it easy and slowly. I think you'll get there in the end. Don't push yourself too hard. One day at a time.