Thank you. Why do you have abandonment issues?
Well, it bothers me that I feel shame somewhere inside of me I think. I think that's what I mean by the bond. I feel when relaxed, I am not a very good person. I am working on that.
I sometimes think (probably because of this) that "these people aren't good enough" or I just shy away when trying to be closer. And I am very sensitive to feeling teased, etc. I used to be teased a lot, even by my "good friends", in a non-good way. I don't want to deal with that. It is also hard for me to do chit-chat in a way that people would enjoy... or is that true? I don't know.
Example, I contacted some people of my past recently and they just have not responded... I worry if I am making a bad impression on people sometimes.