I haven't been blocked by anyone on FB since high school. I'm usually the one who blocks, and I am crushed to find out I've been blocked. I met up with a long-time friend from high school that I've had a crush on since we met. We've hooked up twice before. So he comes over and he spends the first half of the night talking about all the crazy sex he's gotten since we last met and the crazy stories that went with it. I replied, "Gee, I haven't had sex since January." So we're drinking and I admit I had too much to drink, but all my friends would vouch that I have never done anything stupid or crazy or anything like that while drinking, that I'm pretty mellow and level-headed. So we're talking relationships and I ask him what he likes in a girl, and he goes on to say everything that fits my description. So I ask him, why not us? He says, "No way, but I have to admit you're in the 'top 3' of best head I've ever had."


So I fit the description of everything he looks for in a girl, but a relationship with me is out of the question, and on top of it, I'm not "one of" the best, not "the best", but "the top 3" best head he's received. I leave the room, come back, he asks what's wrong, and I tell him, "You need to leave" and escort him out the door.


I think about it the next day, come up with a plan to talk to him and let him know how I feel, find out I'm blocked.


I don't have a question or anything, but I really needed to vent. I talked with my best friend because I was almost in tears with this whole mess and she agreed I wasn't the problem, but I feel like there is something wrong with me and that I am a bad person because of this. Is Mr. Right even in my high power's plan for me? I feel so lost and pathetic, and I feel like such a loser because of this.