i also have a hard time when i am told they are all me, parts of me, etc. i mean, they feel so separate and unlike me and are not just me at different ages. there is more to it than that. it is hard to see them as 'just' different me's when they are their own individual.

i don't have ongoing communication with mine but have co-consciousness with some or a blending/mixing where i can feel they are around, but they don't necessarily talk to me. i can feel their feelings and sometimes hear their thoughts, but it isn't like they have conversations with me. if i can hear what they think, it can be random parts of a sentence i don't get all of or at random times which then makes me wonder if it was them or if i am just tired and it wasn't really.

when i don't feel any around for a while, i start to doubt they are real because i feel like they shouldn't just disappear like that for long periods of time...except when they are active, i then believe in them again. it is not fair for me to think that they aren't real though because i don't think it helps them to trust me. i don't mean to, but it is hard sometimes.

it has been a slow process for me. i am still trying to learn patience and trying to just go with things and not put so much pressure on myself (and the others) to have things happen how i think they should since it doesn't work on my terms, it works on theirs. so i also have to learn to trust them, and eventually they give me more information or clues to things it seems.