So, on Sunday night a local state trooper was killed by a solider with ptsd( he also killed his wife). The trooper was a local who grew up in our small tight knit community. He happened to be a friend of my older brother. It's sad for me, yes. But sad in sense that ohhh.. I knew him while growing up, he has been to my house, had a little nick name for me thing. However, I did not know him into adulthood. Anyways everybody around me is sad and it's making my emotions go crazy.

My mom who is a 911 dispatcher doe the county took the wife's calls, he knew the trooper not only from growing up, but also as a former sheriff deputy and she dispatched for him. She is wrecked and wants to quit her job. And I just don't know how to handle all the Sadness around me.