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Goals2017 · Jul 13, 2017, 04:43 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Oh, the last time I was hospitalized the dr believed I had attempted suicide (I had not but it seemed like I did so I saw where she was coming from). So because of that I was placed on the more restrictive unit, the ACU. The people here were really sick, not just depressed. One day there were about five of us sitting in the day room in complete silence. No tv on, just silence. This quiet girl who looked so sweet was sitting with us. Out of nowhere, she gets up, runs full force at the screen door, and punches it with all her might. Then sits back down with her knuckles bleeding from the sharp metal screen. And nobody even blinked an eye. I looked around rather incredulously to see if anyone was going to say anything. Nope. They all just ignored it like nothing had happened. It was crazy. I got up after a minute and went to tell the nurses what had happened so she could get care for her hand. I hope I never end up on the ACU again.

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I really turn inwards when sick so I don't do much crazy stuff but there were a couple of times when I lost my cool. I'm gonna put this under a trigger as I could be triggering for some people so read with caution.

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one time when i was fifteen I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I was pretty pissed off. This hospital didn't make you remove shoelaces or strings unless you were on precautions. So I had been there a couple of days and just wanted to ****ing die. So I took out my shoelace and started to strangle myself with it. I was trying to see what it would be like to die that way. But I was called for meds. So I stupidly brought the shoelace out with me. The nurse noticed and said "you better not take the other one out or I'll know what you're doing". Well at the time I was very anti authority and hated being told what to do, so I snapped. I told her she couldn't stop me and ran back to my room. I was followed by the big male nurse. He tried to talk me into coming into the lounge for awhile but I refused. He said if I didn't come willingly they would remove me from my room physically. I basically said just try it. So they called the other male tech and forcibly removed me from my room. I tried to fight but I was only 5'2 and 100lbs so obviously I was no match. They dragged me out and put me up against the wall, removed my bracelets and my glasses and shoved me in the quiet room. I proceeded to run around the quiet room and scream and yell about the injustice of it all for about an hour. Then I sat down and tried to bite through my wrist to get at my vein. I made a decent hole but because one of my front teeth is just bonded instead of real I couldn't do too much. Then they gave me Benadryl and I passed out.

Yeah I got sent to residential after that little incident.

Wow that sounded like a horrible day glad you made it through that craziness!