Today I was in town to take a walk in a nice area with nice views near the sea. I live in a suburb and my ex T has her practise in town and she lives rather close to town in a flat with a sea view.

I got reminded of that when I today sat looking over the sea and I thought about how my ex-T (and a lot of other people) has this view daily from their balconies. I sat for a long while thinking about it and I find it very hard to understand how my ex-T can afford having both a practise worth about $300 000 and her flat, I´ve checked the estate market, is also worth about $300 000.

She´s 60+ and that´s a difference between us but I feel very low and I feel hopelessness when I think about how she really has done something with her life and I´m not near such a path in life.

In Sweden therapists aren´t that well-payed actually, I´ve seen her annual revenue as such info is free to get online, but still she has succeeded. She has both her own company, her own practise and a nice flat.

It really bothers me that I can´t get any answer to how she has "gotten" all this. Perhaps she was married before and she and her husband sold their house, I know she now lives by her own, and she got money from that sale. Or perhaps her practise is a heritage from a relative.

Every time I go to town I just feel minor as I live in the suburbs, I´ve been unemployed for long and there´s also a combination of missing my ex-T and feeling envious.

Any advice about this? Perhaps someone has similar thoughts about life?