T, I want to connect with you like in the past. I don't know how to make that happen. Life is going by so fast I can't keep up. I don't have the energy and stamina I used to have. I don't want to grow old but I don't have a choice. So much is going on and I have a lot to talk about! Family stuff I'm worried about. I'm feeling a little depressed again. I haven't been able to meditate much with everyone here. It was kind of chaotic and overwhelming. I'm scared and anxious. I still don't know how to be excited. I think my mother set me up to be this way and I still can't change. Please hold my hand, at least figuratively. I need you!

Love,
Rainbow