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Originally Posted by ACQPL
The bit that confuses me the most though.. There are many people I was not hiding how i was feeling from. Yet, every single response was "I didn't realise it was that bad..."
I didn't mean to do it in this way at all, as I hate attention by default.. But why does it take me nearly getting myself killed for it to twig how much of a mess I am.. ? Do i unconsciously put up a filter or something..
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I can relate to this.
Back when I was at my worst with all sorts of depression, anger, and anxiety issues years ago, I struggled to get any decent help. At one point, I had to claim that I was both homicidal and suicidal to get help because that was the truth at the time for me; if I didn't get help, I was planning on killing my entire family and then myself because my mother was making my life such a living hell at the time that I desperately wanted out.
I'm grateful that I'm more mentally stable now because if I had to live the way that I did back at that point in my life for much longer, I would likely be either dead or in prison right now.
With that being said, I think that most people don't take people like us seriously because they probably think we are crazy and can't be taken seriously because of it. It often takes us being in danger either to ourselves or others to get people to budge and help us.