Maybe you are right. A stepping stone to someone better. I believe that. I put up with too much ish. I dont want to pay for anything else of his. In fact, i quit doing most of that this past two months. He wanted me to buy him a vaporizer for pot and then another time he wanted me to buy him a ecig. That wouldve put me out well over 100 bucks for both together. I said no. I have paid for his food, ubers, and let him eat at my house. Hes eaten so much food at my house that i went without groceries for almost 2 weeks in july. My dad wouldnt pay for any for me. Told me not to let him eat my stuff and maybe id have food.

Its ridiculous. Im so glad someone replied to my post. I needed feedback badly.

Ugh. I kinda wonder if the reason i missed my meds the first day of not taking them was because he wasnt taking his and it was like a shared thought. Either way i eventually went off and on them as everyone here has seen. Even believing i dont need them. Still believe that. It either was a shared thought or he put me in so much agony that i just needed to feel psychosis and not heartbreak anymore.

Honestly i would rather feel psychosis than heartbreak. I honestly think that.