Here's an excerpt from a Sinead O'Connor's recent monologue about her crisis.

"...for two years my whole life revolved around just not dying, and that's not living. I'm not going to die, I'm not going to die, but still, this is no way for people to be living life."

She's so right about just trying to exist not being the same thing as living. I wish I had some proper words of wisdom that could convey a way to find a way to actually live. Several years ago, a friend of mine once recited the quote from Shawshank Redemption, "get busy living or get busy dying." I can see how that could be interpreted as being inspirational or motivating, but it kind of rubs me the wrong way. What if you're psychotically depressed, if the only energy you can muster is to simply breathe? What does that say when you can't "get busy living"? Does the entire statement imply that you have a choice? If so, what does it mean when you don't "get busy living" when you literally don't have the psychical energy? Then there is decision fatigue to contend with.

I have recently found that my cerebral characteristic gets in my way as I spend too much time thinking about how to get out of my situation and not enough time actually taking action. I've heard the counterintuitive expression, "jump and learn to fly on the way down." I think it's kind of foolish, but maybe that type of action would be beneficial.