Wow. I do understand your placement in the LD classes, schools receive more money from the government for students there, and it's quite common for them to label "LD" even students who's only problem is being more intelligent than the teachers.

LOL cute. You're even arguing with yourself about being defiant! Once you accept the true problem, you can being to change it.

Sex is addictive, even when it is in spite. You are being used, and using yourself. I'm sorry to hear this, and hope you can find some self esteem soon. You say you aren't hurt by this guy and the situation, but the hurt shows in the "voice" of you post.

(((((onlykrc)))))) Welcome to psychcentral. I personally think you do wish to change, maybe even all 100% of you.. and that is one of the reasons you posted such "a long post." It's natural to fear change, even good change. Hopefully you will find the support here, and with your T, to begin to change, and take better care of yourself.