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Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend
I want to man I just don't think I'm good enough for a girl that pretty right now.
I've been obsessing with self improvement a lot lately. I want to be good enough; both mentally and physically for other people. I want to be the best version of myself that is physically possible or otherwise I don't think I'm good enough.
For the past couple of years, I have done nothing but fight and struggle just to get to the point that I'm at now. Not even a year ago, I was homeless. I went from a mentally unstable homeless person who couldn't hold down a job to what I am now because of my obsessions. Despite all that I've achieved, I still don't believe that I'm good enough for people.
My obsessions are so extreme now that I am planning on dropping hundreds of dollars on training, resources, and even a coach to help me become the best possible version of myself. Only when I'm as close to perfection as humanly possible will I be good enough to have a beautiful woman love me and good friends and what not. Nothing less will do.
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You seem to be WAY too focused on appearance and don't seem to recognize that appearance is only a very small part of attraction. If the primary reason you are interested in this woman is the way she looks, that would probably be very off-putting to her. Women want to be appreciated for their intelligence, personality, and positive attributes-- not just a superficial "you're hot." And if you think women would like you just for your appaearance and money, you're off base. Women are not that shallow. It seems that your thinking is very distorted. It may be more helpful for you to invest in talking to a therapist so you can see if your OCD and distorted thinking are getting in the way of healthy functioning.