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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
Hoping-- "But I am sure I would be completely bored without him. No decision is perfect. "
Boredom is what you fear? Believe me, you won't ever be bored.
I'm afraid of breaking down and panicking because I feel helpless. I'm terrified of living alone. I have never been alone and independent.
Why have we both been so cruel to ourselves as to hurt ourselves to try to get love from others?
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Sometimes I have been strong enough lately to say what is on my mind and verbally fight it out but it is exhausting. Other days I do not have the energy for this and keep to myself. It is exhausting for him when we fight too. It reminds me a bit of the relationship between my mom and I--two strong willed people (though my mom and H would usually win
) refusing to back down. Neither my mom or H are bad people.