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Originally Posted by Trace14
No I think the short term therapy does more harm and wastes a lot of time. At least in my case. Harm by, like what you said, not ever really being able to build that therapeutic relationship, which seems to be the Golden Rule of therapy. I can tell you are feeling the abandonment and distrust for this T because you are hurt. I do the same thing. If feel hurt by someone I build the walls and block them out from then on. Doesn't matter if they meant to hurt me, I felt that they hurt me. Did they mean to? Is it something so bad I have to block them out of my life? Am I seeing their side of the situation, or just mine?
Trust is hard for us and any T worth their weight knows that. You seem to care about this T. You think maybe you could let down the walls enough to hear his/her side and what the plans are moving forward?  |
I think, maybe, short term, focused therapy would have given me some skills to try and self manage, but I do think, I have gained from long term therapy, despite the negatives of now losing that weekly support.
Yes, you are right, part of me is hurt. T was providing that parental role, that I missed out on. I have to accept, that it can never completely mend or replace it and know T has worked hard to silence my 'inner critic' and foster more self compassion. I guess there is nothing more that can be achieved with T and now I just have to practice these things.
Rationally, I know T has my best interests at heart and doesn't want me to be stuck in a dependent relationship.
I just, I suppose, feel a bit pathetic and I also feel vulnerable and am not good at showing my weaknesses.
Still don't know how the next session will pan out. But am trying to be open minded / reflective.