I've made posts before talking about a man I loved as though he was at fault. I realize I'm deplorable and I wish I could die to end my pain I cause to others. I was just in an accident when I realized it's my fault for not listening to the man i love or think I love and leaving me when he told me to let him go. I hate myself and I don't want to be alive to cause anymore pain. That's all I've ever done. I HATE MYSELF