In the moment of it I hated it and hated her. I wanted to quit. But she explained that quitting was another one of my avoidance actions, which made me mad too Mad enough to prove I could do it, maybe that was her plan and it worked. I kept on with it, and it was hard through the last day. But.....it got easier to think about the trauma and talk about afterwards. The memory was still there, and it was still upsetting but not like it was before. So I took that as a positive thing, the baby steps plan. We can't expect to have the memories erased or not feel emotions/pain about the trauma in just 12 weeks, that's just not realistic. But if we can make the slightest positive movement towards that goal, it will all be worth it. It's just going to take time and commitment. You need to look at your fear and ask if it's a fear based on facts, or a fear based on beliefs. If what you are afraid of is a possibility or a thing that will happen. If your fear is that it will make things worse, ....it might, but not permanently. You have to work through trauma, not around it. And that's hard. Yes you may feel worse and that's when you talk to the T and have your support system around you. Would I do it again? Yes. We worked on one trauma mostly and I would like to do it again to work on others.
PE therapy is used for phobias too. Your T must think you are ready for this and will be there to help guide you through it. Don't let yourself quit, show your strength to want to get better and show that memory you will control it and not the other way around.