I was MANIC, way up there, a few days ago and am now DEPRESSED to the point of wanting to cry, but can't. My heart is broken and I feel misunderstood and unloved where once there was joy and seemingly understanding. Now, there is just negativity and criticism. Also, no sympathy, in a situation that really deserves some sympathy. I am torn. I want to leave that place forever, but I fear it is because of my mood and that I would regret it later, if I did so. So I am undecided for now, until I can get into a neutral mood, one that will better be able to grasp the whole history of my life there and help me to see things clearly. I may in fact leave there. I may not. I am undecided, for now, due to my DEPRESSED mood.