[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Ended up back at convenient care this weekend, breathing treatment, steroid and antibiotics again. Feeling much better today.

Thanks for the update.
I've been wondering how you are doing, especially since you'd mentioned coughing again.
Please take excellent care.

WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Busy day. Husband had an allergy test done; he is allergic to two types of dust mites. Appt. with my regular doc went well. The hospital is offering a program for people with joint pain, so I signed up for that to see if it will help my right rotator cuff. No date for the weight management program yet. Still have to get meds and supplies on Thursday. At least I made my doc laugh.

So overall a productive day. Now we have to clean the house and keep it clean so the mites will go down. Ugh!

[Wild Coyote]

Still recovering from the weekend.
Experiencing an overall flare of joint swelling and severe pain. I was taken off the low-dose chemo injections for 6 weeks. It had helped with the pain and inflammation; yet, my rheumatologist was concerned it might be adding to depression. Tonight, I would beg for it to be restarted, if begging would help. Lol. Called her office today and earliest avail appt is in 10 days. Not too bad ; yet, seems like a long wait when on fire with pain. (It takes several weeks for the injections to build up and give relief.)

I usually pay a price for pushing like I did to hold the open house event.
I am glad we did it; really do not know how many more years my mother will be walking this Earth with us. (I think she has me beat, in all honesty!)

Thankfully, my med cocktail (new addition Abilify) is helping my mood.

I will be patient.

Love to all!


WC

[Lifeischallenging]

My shift today wasn't much better from Sunday. I didn't loose my temper like I did Sunday, but I did have some issues. I accidentally gave my customers discount on fuel to another customer who inadvertently took her prepay as well. He was nice enough to pay for her fuel and I thanked him as well as apologized to her. She went into the store for her discount. I'm so scared though. All this happened on my coworkers numbers where I work. It sent me into a depression. I just hope I can get my mood under control and gain my focus back. In other news, my brother in laws brat kid officially got his way and now controls everything in my apartment. I'm not even allowed to say he can't do something. I'm not happy about this.

[bizi]

I am afraid of hurricane Irma.....
bizi

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Doing pretty good. Went cold turkey on stopping caffeine (my therapist wanted me to stop).

Stopping caffeine is a solid maneuver.

Masceter! Tried our new weed destroyer today, the most powerful available on the island, a Husqvarna beast that whips two lines of plastic-coated metal cable instead of the usual plastic string. Despite its formidable power, it couldn't tame the switchgrass in our South 40, a formidable disappointment. I realize as I write this how mundane it is, but welcome to my world.

I had a sleep apnea test ($195 copay whether you have apnea or not) at Queen's Hospital Saturday night, woke at 4:40 AM, then couldn't sleep until after midnight on Sunday, resulting in a sleep hygeine crisis that required a dose of an antipsychotic. I love the word antipsychotic.

In other news, one of the biggest hurricanes in recorded history is aiming to plow into Florida and cryptocurrencies are surging. I'm not suggesting a correlation, but you can come to your own conclusions.

The DPRK, having tested what they claim was a hydrogen bomb that caused a 6.3 magnitude earthquake that shook buildings in China, is now preparing to launch an ICBM, which will probably prompt Trump to do something stupid.

South Korea and Japan are requesting deployment of American tactical nukes, as the 2+ hours that would take for American strategic bombers stationed in Guam to arrive would be too long if the DPRK went nonlinear.

There's no viable military option against the DPRK because in the unlikely event that America, Japan and the ROK could eliminate every DPRK nuclear asset in a first strike, they wouldn't be able to neutralize their massive corps of artillery that would turn everything from the DMZ to Seoul into an ashtray and kill 10+ million people.

I wish I could smoke boo with Kim Jong Un, Xi Jinping and Vladimir Putin and straighten everything out, which I realize smacks of manic delusion. I know enough Korean to get into trouble, but not enough to get out of it. I could don a judo gi and have Putin slam me around a mat if it would help. Kim and Xi can kick me when I'm down.

Reunification is near.

[winter loneliness]

^ You really know how to cheer a place up. lol

I am OK. Ate an edible. I shouldn't do that too often.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Still recovering from the weekend.
Experiencing an overall flare of joint swelling and severe pain. I was taken off the low-dose chemo injections for 6 weeks. It had helped with the pain and inflammation; yet, my rheumatologist was concerned it might be adding to depression. Tonight, I would beg for it to be restarted, if begging would help. Lol. Called her office today and earliest avail appt is in 10 days. Not too bad ; yet, seems like a long wait when on fire with pain. (It takes several weeks for the injections to build up and give relief.)

I usually pay a price for pushing like I did to hold the open house event.
I am glad we did it; really do not know how many more years my mother will be walking this Earth with us. (I think she has me beat, in all honesty!)

Thankfully, my med cocktail (new addition Abilify) is helping my mood.

I will be patient.

Love to all!


WC

I honestly don't see how you do it. I am so sorry you're in severe pain and hope you can feel some level of comfort or feel better sooner rather than later. Ten days sounds like a lifetime. Thinking of you.

[bizi]

I am worried about the storms coming. poor people.
sending warm thoughts of safety toward those who need it.
bizi

[jmariah001]

Finally the car is being towed to the mechanic's garage. It only took a week. Really tired of not having a car. It makes me feel trapped not being able to go anywhere. Hopefully we will hear from the mechanic later today with some decent news. This has definitely made my mood go down hill the past few days. I was yelling at my husband earlier and he didn't deserve it. Hopefully we get the car back in a couple of days and it helps my mood improve a little. Not sure how much it will improve because this is usually the time of year where my mood takes a dive anyways. Usually because of Fall approaching. Hoping things get better soon.

[hopeless2015]

So slow mentally today. It's taking me forever to get little things accomplished, yesterday was the same.

[SheilaKathy]

I was MANIC, way up there, a few days ago and am now DEPRESSED to the point of wanting to cry, but can't. My heart is broken and I feel misunderstood and unloved where once there was joy and seemingly understanding. Now, there is just negativity and criticism. Also, no sympathy, in a situation that really deserves some sympathy. I am torn. I want to leave that place forever, but I fear it is because of my mood and that I would regret it later, if I did so. So I am undecided for now, until I can get into a neutral mood, one that will better be able to grasp the whole history of my life there and help me to see things clearly. I may in fact leave there. I may not. I am undecided, for now, due to my DEPRESSED mood.

[wildflowerchild25]

Started feeling low after work. The weather doesn't help (cold and rainy). I wanted to go home and sleep but obviously I can't do that.

I have a consultation with my tattoo artist to get the scars on my right forearm covered up. He did a great job with my left forearm. unfortunately he's so good that he's booked up until at least the new year. I'll probably get an appointment in march or April. Which is fine, I knew it would be a long wait. It's worth it to get it done right.

Feel like crying. Going to bed as soon as my son's in bed.

[SheilaKathy]

Maybe I am not quite so depressed, except if I think about the national weather report and international news. Then I get depressed! But my life is simple, compared to all that. VERY SIMPLE. And not really that bad. Depression can just make it seem like it is.

Osteomyelitis! Tremor too bad to type. Send help. Send serious beta-adrenergic antagonism.

My fantasy of hotboxing in a donk with Putin, Kim and Xi persists. I could invite Modi and Merkel. Trump isn't coming; he would kill the vibe, so I get to represent America. Everyone would get thoroughly unfolded and put an end to war on this planet. In a donk. A stenographer would be good, and we would all have to stay well-hydrated. We're talking seven with drinks in a donk. And plenty of fine multicultural munchies. We're going to need a big donk. Fly and riding high.

I highly recommend

by Gary Null.

[Faltering]

I saw my pdoc today. I was upset about the weight gain on Zyprexa and didn't want to add Metformin, so we decided to switch to Vraylar. He gave me some samples and I'm hoping my insurance will cover most of it. I'm finally going to taper off Zyprexa! Yay.

[Unrigged64072835]

Only had to plan meals and get groceries today. Also bought tires, sent an email for a quote from a electrician, and left a voicemail for the mammogram. Plus made dinner. Still need to clean the house, or at least vacuum the living room.

Tomorrow is getting meds and supplies. That will chunk up the morning anyhow.

Still feeling low.

[bizi]

I saw my pdoc today. She added 25mg of seroquel at noon to see if it will help with my addictions.
bizi

[Lifeischallenging]

I missed my appointment with my pdoc yesterday so I had to call and see if he could get me in for tomorrow. Work was pretty good tonight though. I hope I am back to a normal schedule with my moods. This unpredictability that Bipolar Disorder brings is tough.

Got stoned and finished my first coherent story in 20 years: 3059 words in 3 weeks on a local indica strain named Shateigashira. I'd like to thank the Check-in threads for providing a safe environment in which to practice. Thank you all.

[wonderluster]

quote=Lefty the Salesman;5806132]Stopping caffeine is a solid maneuver.

Masceter! Tried our new weed destroyer today, the most powerful available on the island, a Husqvarna beast that whips two lines of plastic-coated metal cable instead of the usual plastic string. Despite its formidable power, it couldn't tame the switchgrass in our South 40, a formidable disappointment. I realize as I write this how mundane it is, but welcome to my world.

I had a sleep apnea test ($195 copay whether you have apnea or not) at Queen's Hospital Saturday night, woke at 4:40 AM, then couldn't sleep until after midnight on Sunday, resulting in a sleep hygeine crisis that required a dose of an antipsychotic. I love the word antipsychotic.

In other news, one of the biggest hurricanes in recorded history is aiming to plow into Florida and cryptocurrencies are surging. I'm not suggesting a correlation, but you can come to your own conclusions.

The DPRK, having tested what they claim was a hydrogen bomb that caused a 6.3 magnitude earthquake that shook buildings in China, is now preparing to launch an ICBM, which will probably prompt Trump to do something stupid.

South Korea and Japan are requesting deployment of American tactical nukes, as the 2+ hours that would take for American strategic bombers stationed in Guam to arrive would be too long if the DPRK went nonlinear.

There's no viable military option against the DPRK because in the unlikely event that America, Japan and the ROK could eliminate every DPRK nuclear asset in a first strike, they wouldn't be able to neutralize their massive corps of artillery that would turn everything from the DMZ to Seoul into an ashtray and kill 10+ million people.

I wish I could smoke boo with Kim Jong Un, Xi Jinping and Vladimir Putin and straighten everything out, which I realize smacks of manic delusion. I know enough Korean to get into trouble, but not enough to get out of it. I could don a judo gi and have Putin slam me around a mat if it would help. Kim and Xi can kick me when I'm down.

Reunification is near.

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Great Stuff!

After reading your description of world events it has become clear to me that there are many things out of our control that can cause us pain and suffering. All we can do is:

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by SheilaKathy

I was MANIC, way up there, a few days ago and am now DEPRESSED to the point of wanting to cry, but can't. My heart is broken and I feel misunderstood and unloved where once there was joy and seemingly understanding. Now, there is just negativity and criticism. Also, no sympathy, in a situation that really deserves some sympathy. I am torn. I want to leave that place forever, but I fear it is because of my mood and that I would regret it later, if I did so. So I am undecided for now, until I can get into a neutral mood, one that will better be able to grasp the whole history of my life there and help me to see things clearly. I may in fact leave there. I may not. I am undecided, for now, due to my DEPRESSED mood.

I know how you feel. I am going through that now.
I know from past experiences that it is really catastrophic to burn bridges.

I am in crisis too and I am not sure how to proceed. I think all I can do is accept and make peace with the fact that I do not know what to do and just tread water.

I find it is best at this time to be very careful with my words and actions so I do not make things worse while I am confused.

Kindness and Positivity towards All is always a good thing

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Got stoned and finished my first coherent story in 20 years: 3059 words in 3 weeks on a local indica strain named Shateigashira. I'd like to thank the Check-in threads for providing a safe environment in which to practice. Thank you all.

Congratulations for completion of a story!

Indica can be a very good thing.

[hopeless2015]

Seem to be doing ok this week which surprises me. I'm broke as a joke right now and I'm very triggered by financial issues so I'm not sure why I'm so calm right now. I've been complimented 3 times this morning on my outfit here at work. It's really nice to hear a compliment, feels good.

[99fairies]

Iv'e been doing really well! I took myself off the clozapine and I just feel sharper and more aware of whats going on around me. I'm still on the invega shot so I do still have an ap on board so no worries.