(((hugs)))) I can relate. I do this too with my own depression. Depression can interfere with daily functioning and with our desire to do anything. Sometimes I find that I seriously have to force myself to do things, when I really don't want to. I try not to give into the depression. You may have to force yourself as well, when you really don't feel like doing it. Sometimes, it's the only way to work through and with the depression, is not to give into it and you'll feel better for having done so.