Thanks, Eve. Yes, I have therapy this afternoon, actually. We moved my appointment up one week, just so that we could address all this sooner. I have a feeling that we will have to make some extra appointments in order to deal with it fully. I want to handle not only "it" but also what is behind it, my past traumas, bullying and also the emotional abuse I received as a young child from both my father and his father. The later was also my molester. Both, as well, physically abused me. (And I have an adult repeated rape by a BF as well). Needless to say, ALL this has come to a head and is overwhelming me!