I wanted to go to a far away university to be far from the comfort of home. While I like this comfort because who doesn't like comfort, I don't think being comfortable will get me anywhere.
I have so much things I want to do - I want to volunteer yet the admin hasn't responded to my email when I sent it a few months ago.
I want to work but I am just unable to make the steps. I am so confused about life, about my status in it. Am I high status because I feel great potential inside, or is it low status because in action I just hardly do anything..?

I feel depressed. I've been on 4-hour sleeps for about 4 days due to jet-lags after being abroad.

I really don't know what I'm gonna do with myself, I don't know what is the right way for me to live.