What will I do in life?

I wanted to go to a far away university to be far from the comfort of home. While I like this comfort because who doesn't like comfort, I don't think being comfortable will get me anywhere.
I have so much things I want to do - I want to volunteer yet the admin hasn't responded to my email when I sent it a few months ago.
I want to work but I am just unable to make the steps. I am so confused about life, about my status in it. Am I high status because I feel great potential inside, or is it low status because in action I just hardly do anything..?

I feel depressed. I've been on 4-hour sleeps for about 4 days due to jet-lags after being abroad.

I really don't know what I'm gonna do with myself, I don't know what is the right way for me to live.

I often have trouble figuring out my next steps because of fear of making the wrong choices and leaving the comfort of my current circumstances. Could that be causing confusion? There are no guarantees to any choice we make and taking action is the way we learn what we want and don't want in life. Maybe this relates to what you are going through.

Yes, kind of does.
I want to take big steps in life. But sometimes the past and its actions haunt me and make me question how much will it have an influence on my future.

I think I can relate.
I have trouble believing I can make my future turn out different than my present. It's doubt that is limiting me. I doubt I can change or doubt I will be able to handle the change. But, it isn't serving me much good to be stuck in doubt. I know I have to take an action - even if it isn't the perfect action to make change happen.

I can relate a lot, as well.. I'm sorry you're struggling as well Often we feel paralyzed by our fear and anxiety and we don't know what to do..

I'm 62 years old and I still don't know what I want to do with my life you may roll your eyes and think "well Gee, thanks a hell of lot for that happy note."

But as I look back on my life, yea I always had doubts, fears, and questions. The only time I moved forward was when I realized that not doing anything is also a decision. I got out there and took risks, experimented. As in hmmm.... well that job sucked, time to try something new. Ok, zip lining wasn't nearly as fun as I thought it would be. Oh hey, turns out I'm really good at computers, let's see where this takes me.

Fear of failing holds many of us back. But trying something and finding out that you don't like it or are just not good at it doesn't mean failure. You've learned something about yourself. It's a journey of exploration.

I think that the idea of high or low status isn't real. Every person has their own concept of what that means. We imagine it up based on our life experiences and our perception of ourselves. It's different to everyone, so your opinion of yourself is really the only thing that can matter there. You can't ever know someone else's definitions of high or low status. And if you're struggling with depression, your assessment of yourself might be colored by negative thinking which makes even your own standard unfairly harsh. I think you could chuck that question completely.

But if you feel like it's important to you to know about yourself, then maybe make some decisions about what it means to you. And it sounds like you aren't sure how status should work in regard to how successful a person is. So maybe think about it in terms of an area that you are sure about. Like start looking at status with regard to something you feel good about to counteract any predisposition gives you to being self-critical. If you're going to judge yourself, judge yourself against your own standard. And since it's an imaginary concept, do it kindly. Why not give yourself the benefit of the doubt every chance you get.

Can't doubt forever

You could make a decision about a path you'd like to take or a goal you'd like to meet and take baby steps. Explore. If it doesn't fulfill you then you've gained valuable experience and can try another path or goal. You might be pleasantly surprised where you end up.