i will try to write something down again... every time i have tried before though it fails...

but i don't know what to write...

i was just discharged from the hospital on the 25th though so im trying to stay focused and its really hard...

i kind of just want to go back to the hospital and stay there for ever...

in the hospital they told me there wasn't any medicine they can give me that will help... they just put me on prazosin to hopefully help with the nightmares...

they said its severe ptsd and wasn't at all concerned with the substances... i dont know why my case manager is pushing me the way she is... she even wanted me to go back to the rehab center and i told her that i was not going to do that...