Do I have anorexia or BDD or neither?
I want to change what I can (weight/shape) but be able to not get triggered and suffer and ruin all my experiences. I haven't had fun in years. I can't just enjoy myself like a normal person. I can't go to a concert or a party and be entertained like a normal person, I'm just constantly suffering through it because I'm so dissatisfied with how I look.