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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Yes...I know with sza the moods and psychosis don't have to pair but often they do....aside from that there is there whole wanting to do anything requires major effort...
Did you go to your museum or get Hulu today?
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I wonder why im like this. Its like i know i need them most the time but i just cant bring myself to do it. And the more i DONT take it the more i dont want it. Ugh. I probably am in some psychosis. Knowing me. Whenever i get depressed i just dont want them. I think about all the side effects and how superficial i am on meds and it makes me so sick. Im so sick of myself.
I think angelique is kinda right. I feel like maybe im not takkng them to kinda punish myself. To like show the world “look, me ON them is NOT who i am. I dont care about you. I CAN survive alone without this world. Without you.” Idk. Im so confused.
I didnt do any of that stuff