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Old Oct 16, 2017, 06:24 PM
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Originally Posted by JessLynn View Post
Day 1. I found myself looking for fallen jib on the floor and realized what a weirdo I am. My girlfriend is currently not coming home and not talking to me so I have been really sad and stressed... Used yesterday, but stayed strong today.
Looking for crumbs on the floor is not all that weird when it comes to addicts. I cannot tell you how many times I have heard friends say that they have done that. My drug of choice has always been pills. I have a really hard time throwing away any prescription, regardless of what it is used for. I have caught myself digging thru drawers looking for that one bottle that might be there that could possibly be mind altering, even tho I cleaned out the addictive stuff a long time ago.

One day is awesome! I'm sorry your gf is not talking to you... I will say that a lot of the time, when someone decides to try to get clean, the people around them that still use will feel threatened. Us quitting kind of throws it in their faces that their use isn't normal either, and they will do whatever they can to get us to keep using so they don't feel weird. The best bet is to just stop hanging out, stop talking, stop everything that involves people who do still use. Whether they care about us or not, their survival instincts kick in and they will do anything to protect their own behaviors. People, places and things. Any off these that get in the way of us staying clean need to be changed.
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