Seriously though. Is this as good as it gets? Do I just get to live my life at 75% capacity of what it used to be? I’m sick of this ****. I want to be able to function normally. I wish people would stop telling me to find a new normal. This is unacceptable. My brain won’t work. The only way I can get it to work is if I take large amounts of stimulants and weed. When I do that I can actually get a moment of clarity. I can’t do that all the time though. I want my old brain back. Before all these meds and nervous breakdowns. I want my photographic memory back. I want all my memories back. **** all this ********.