I have type 2 Bipolar disorder and need some advice suggestions or some type of input from someone. I am currently not taking medication due to me being out of work and having no income right now.

To keep a long story short 2 years I started on a journey to make my own video game. I am about 2 - 4 weeks away from release of the game, and I am exhausted. My symptoms have been in and out for the last couple years due to lack of stress. I have been able to control it for the most part. I do have occasional outbursts, spurts of pure rage, seeing and hearing things that are not there. I have been in a mix state for prob. the last couple weeks.

This is my question though, the closer I get to release the more present my symptoms become due to the stress. It feels like it did back when I worked for others. I feel sometimes like i'm losing touch with my reality but I keep pushing forward. I can’t quit now, I will not quit now. I have built something great here not just the game but the people I have met and the followers of the game. I have built a community around a single purpose all by myself. This is probably my greatest achievement out of all this. I built relationships with others, complete strangers. Within the next 4 weeks my symptoms are bound to explode. I can control it for the most part but if feels like i’m dying on the inside. What should I do? I don’t want to take time off of the game for this. This is where I need some type of suggestion or advice or something. Thank you for your time and I look forward to hearing anything lol.

P.S. I do not have a support team, my mother does not understand bipolar and gets weirded out when I talk about it. The rest of my family we do not speak to each other. As for friends, I do not wish to burden them with this, so in all respects I am all alone, and have been for quite a long time. Which could be another reason on why I’m so exhausted. I’m just tired, worn out and have no one else to turn to except complete strangers (No Offense).