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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I reaaaaally didn’t want to take my meds tonight. I just feel sooooo good, I don’t want to lose it! But I know what happens when I don’t take my meds. The hypo goes to mania, which turns mixed, which ends with me IP. I don’t want to ruin my life right now. So I took them like a good girl. I even took the trazadone which has calmed me right down. I might even fall asleep. Without it I certainly would have been up half the night.
I wish the hypo had never come back. It’s like s superpower I’m not allowed to have. It feels so amazing but it ruins everything. But I want it. It’s my drug.
Ah well. Hopefully I’ll be calm tomorrow.
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This is exactly how I get when hypomanic, and I have a similar hypo/manic/mixed manic progression of episodes. Sometimes I stop taking medications when I get too "up"....not completely, but not the way I should.
Please be safe and take care of yourself. As good as euphoric states feel, they always backfire unless interventions are taken. I know it's hard once you're feeling that way. Good sleep is especially important.
