[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

Jennifer... I just called my pharmacist and explained how bad it was. He said that it's very serious and that he will be calling my pdoc right away.

That’s really good news. I hope you can get some relief soon.

[liveforsummer]

Well glad I accomplished all I did yday as today pretty well nothing much got done. Did meet new T. I think it will work out. See her again in 2 weeks. Got home this afternoon around 4 and went to bed and slept til 5:30. Made dinner. Back in bed again. Rainy out. Don’t feel happy or sad. Just feel here.
Hugs everyone

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

By the way, how tf am I supposed to merge PowerPoint and word? I have the pp presentation to submit but also a reflection and evaluation that has to be done in word. I can only submit one file. Wtf???? Why do they make this so difficult?

zip both documents together to create 1 zip file, then upload the zip?

try that

[Faltering]

The pdoc said he's worried about me with the severity of my symptoms. He prescribed Cogentin for the akathisia and wants me to take Zyprexa again. No more Vraylar. He also told me to take tomorrow off work and I just might do that. I requested an assessment for a hospital that has IOP, PHP, and IP. Not sure if it's the right step at this point but I'm not really sure what I need anymore.

[wildflowerchild25]

I reaaaaally didn’t want to take my meds tonight. I just feel sooooo good, I don’t want to lose it! But I know what happens when I don’t take my meds. The hypo goes to mania, which turns mixed, which ends with me IP. I don’t want to ruin my life right now. So I took them like a good girl. I even took the trazadone which has calmed me right down. I might even fall asleep. Without it I certainly would have been up half the night.

I wish the hypo had never come back. It’s like s superpower I’m not allowed to have. It feels so amazing but it ruins everything. But I want it. It’s my drug.

Ah well. Hopefully I’ll be calm tomorrow.

[winter loneliness]

Still depressed, but I am trying to change things in my life. Self-care.

So I picked up my new car yesterday... Going to the town hall @ 8am today (which is when they open!) to get my license plate

Since the car is a hybrid, I didn’t use any gas going from the dealership to home! Go me! I’m going to continue using my SUV, though, until I get body work on my new car. (I had purchased some body mods and floor mats for the car that the dealership didn’t have in stock.)

Hooray!

Otherwise, doing ok. I’m just hoping this impulse buy doesn’t bite me in the ***, as I spent a good amount of change on this. Manic? Prob not. This is just me being a huge idiot who buys what they see without thinking things though.

[scatterbrained04]

I keep waking up at 3:30am for some reason. I'm getting annoyed. Doesn't my body know my alarm is set for 4:45?

I've made it 24 hours without a cigarette.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. I taught today then ate lunch at a Indian restaurant. The curry was delicious with nan. I was happy!! I also am thinking of taking Japanese lessons because I have so much time on my hands and need to do something constructive. I found some teachers on a teachers' website. I will contact them once I have their contact info. I am feeling well. Tomorrow, I have two classes and will be busy. They are two-hours each. I have to travel far for one of them. It is ok. I am not busy so doing something makes me feel productive. I feel good about myself though overall. I am staying out of trouble and am taking my medication daily. I am doing well.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m agitated this morning. I’m glad I took my meds because it might be worse if I hadn’t. I can handle myself I think. I hope I’ll feel better once I get around people and my students. Right now I’m feeling that tingling on my wrists indicating I want to cut them. And I have drama club until 5 today I wish I could see my therapist. I shouldn’t have canceled the appointments.

Sigh...hoping my day improves.

[Faltering]

I'm restless this morning so I took the Cogentin. I'm home from work having racing thoughts and thoughts of SH. I hope I'll be okay alone.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I keep waking up at 3:30am for some reason. I'm getting annoyed. Doesn't my body know my alarm is set for 4:45?

I've made it 24 hours without a cigarette.

Yay!!! Congratulations!!! You can do this. You really can.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling irritable and blah today. Uncomfortable in my own skin if that makes sense. I usually have to sleep days like this off. Hope I’m not going into my SAD phase already.

Sending hugs to all those that are struggling.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I'm restless this morning so I took the Cogentin. I'm home from work having racing thoughts and thoughts of SH. I hope I'll be okay alone.

Reach out if/when you need help.
Family? Friends?
Therapist?
PC? (here)
Hotline?
ER?

Be safe.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I keep waking up at 3:30am for some reason. I'm getting annoyed. Doesn't my body know my alarm is set for 4:45?

I've made it 24 hours without a cigarette.

CONGRATS!


WC

[99fairies]

I didn't know where else to post this question. When you call a crisis hotline, do they know where you live?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I didn't know where else to post this question. When you call a crisis hotline, do they know where you live?

it's possible you could be tracked IF you use a computer or a landline. I do not think a crisis hotline can locate a cell phone.

This is a great question!
It would be interesting/helpful to get as many different responses as possible; it would make a great thread all on its own.

I hope you are more comfortable today.


WC

[WildcatVet]

Apparently they can trace a landline call...

**Will the Police Get Called If I'm Suicidal and Call a Suicide Hotline?

This is a tricky question and the answer is neither "yes" nor "no." In the vast majority of cases, no police (or other authority) involvement is required and in the cases where emergency help is needed, suicide hotline staff will make every attempt to gain permission to send them. The goal of a suicide hotline is to help you with your personal crisis and no one-size-fits-all solution is possible.

That being said, if you are actively suicidal and threatening to imminently hurt yourself, it is possible that emergency personnel may be called without your permission. While no one likes that scenario, it truly is the best, lifesaving thing an operator can do in a small number of cases.**

[liveforsummer]

Extremely unfocused day at work and I cannot stop moving/wiggling my foot/leg and once my head fixates on a song it’s playing over and over and over in my head. Otherwise stable lol. I want to go to bed but going to force myself not to so I can save all my tiredness for sleeping tonight. (Crap sleep last night again).

Good ques 99fairies regarding crisis line intervention. I sat with my phone on my lap to text one night in sept but stopped cause I was afraid they’d send police to my door. I agree with WC would make a good thread!

[Faltering]

I'm going to the hospital for an assessment tonight. I'm scared. I'm hoping they give me treatment options and don't force me to stay.

[fishin fool]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I'm going to the hospital for an assessment tonight. I'm scared. I'm hoping they give me treatment options and don't force me to stay.

Best of luck, I hope it all goes well.

[fishin fool]

Once again struggling to stay out of the darkness of depression but at the moment
I am losing the battle.

[Naynay99]

Feeling okay. Been very overwhelmed lately with work and stuff though.
Trying not to let the stress get to me. I am not depressed but am feeling somewhat disappointed and dismayed with the universe and humanity lately.
Too many balls in the air that are crashing down on me.
I have lots of chores to do that I keep putting off. Feel so exhausted and want to come home from work and do nothing.
I am feeling lonely and yet avoiding people at the same time. I feel the urge to do something irresponsible and stupid, maybe I need some drama in my life
To feel normal. Idk.
Gonna start using my sun lamp soon- trying to be proactive before the decreasing sunlight of fall/winter starts to suck out my soul. Depression can go fuuck itself, I am going to stay sane and keep my mood from crashing.
Have a good week all.

[WildcatVet]

The tick that bit me was positive for Lyme disease so started the first course of AB's today...immediate and violent nausea and vomiting... allergic or can't tolerate almost any antibiotic.
Not sure what I'm going to do about my psych meds if this keeps up...just starting to feel somewhat stable again and now this...making me feel very scared and anxious...

[bizi]

MDOC sent the referral for the new Pdoc. I have to decide if I will have both hips xrayed by tomorrow. Will call my mdocs office and request both but only the left if she won't approve of both, my knees are really bothering me too.
sigh
I got the results back from my neck xrays...
osteoarthritis
so I am guessing that is just regular arthritis???
The back xrays shows nothing wrong.
I really am tired of the NAMI class.
I want to not go back.
I have a week to think about it.
I eat too much when I am there, they feed you. and I snack on candy to deal with stress. I am not really doing the work the way they want us to.

We are having a realtor come to the house tomorrow morning to look at our home for an estimate on what the house is worth. We are going to have some work done on the house. We already took out a tree in the back yard. They grinded the stump really well.

the tree was interfering with the foundation of the house.
We need a new front door.
The yard is a mess.
There is so much work to be done....sigh
bizi