So, my life is messed up. I'm poor. My grandma has all cancers and dementia. My dad is a phisycal worker/contractor. He makes 200 $. He isnt cause of my problems. Well in school (im 7th grade) i fallen in love with girl that's 14. She's not answering my facebook messages and I'm afraid to talk to her in person. I play volin 6 years.I even made video in 2015. I wont show you URL. But nobody but my dad cares about it. Things that made me try to kill myself were: I have unrealistic Crush, I'm ugly, i'm poor, i play instrument that cares about but my dad, and I really dont like most things my friends like. For exmpl. music, sports, and then i follow politics, geography, and im excellent student. English not as you noticed my primary language.I'm Serbian. I know my life is better than most of people that dont suffer depression. But i'm losing hope in life.Help please