I know you guys are probably right but I can't just leave my husband. We have 4 kids under age 8 and honestly I'm too dependant on him and it's my own fault. If I did decide I wanted to leave him I could never make it on my own. I don't have a degree so I couldn't get a high paying job I'm only a licensed cosmetologist. I really don't want to have to leave because I do love him so much. I just want to fix this I just don't know how.