I don't know you so I cannot say with absolute certainty, but I feel safe in venturing a guess there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. It seems to be the norm with society these days to use ppl for what they can get but never really try to have meaningful relationships - even as far as friendships go. So for those of us who want a meaningful relationship, pain becomes our "friend" instead.

I am glad you have a dog with you. They can be therapeutic in many ways. I know mine are for me.

Do you have any other ways of coping? Do you know any relaxation techniques or use anything to calm you?