I feel you on the normies. I'm in the position, though, in which I hurt my wife, perhaps irreparably, by my behavior while manic. If I get a little manic I think it puts her on alert. Her wanting me to be well is impart a control over her own life. The normies in my life mean well...I think...by the way they define wellness. Perhaps their definition is that I'm more like them which I am not...at least not completely. I think we're having different experiences and I should consider myself lucky to not have to feel the resentment you...I'm guessing...rightfully feel. Then there's my previous church and job where I self-destructed. Will they ever feel comfortable around me? I'll probably never know because I moved on. My current work, my current church, and others may never know what I was like back them, not enough to feel the difference between me and them. What they know now is an anxious man worried that he may become sick again and they not fully realizing what that means.

As far as azz wiping goes, dang, I hope there is not a trajectory starting with my wife's monitoring and her wiping my sorry azz. I don't expect there to be.

Is that a real thing? I'm sheltered from the knowledge if there is.