I think u should keep crushing your MMA, workouts and working on your issues. In 6 months to a year u will be a new person and u can enter dating scene.

You mentioned u want to go to Thailand for training I do believe. Cant u set that as a purpose and do it in a year or so?

Along doing the above a lot of opportunities can come up and your true destiny can be revealed, but u wont have the chance if u go backwards so u must just keep focusing on getting better in both body and mind.

Im only 80 days sober and out of major depression and Ive had stunning results. Im not out of the woods, but I have a new direction that Im taking it slow, but Im already seeing many purposes in my life including helping others fight the addiction that destroys so many lives.

U are doing great Boogie, just imagine how much better u will be in 3 months and can reevaluate things more deeply.