Hello allieb257, welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to enter the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.

Unfortunately we here cannot diagnose you, but I can tell you that what you describe is not typically associated with depression or depersonalization disorder. It would be best to bring these concerns up with a therapist. Even if you can't attach a label to it, it is certainly worth looking into and working through.