confused and concerned.

Hi everyone, I am new to this site and just want to say hi to you all!
For quite some time I have been struggling with depression, and my relationships with others have changed drastically.
When analyzing my relationships, I only look for the benefits for myself (ex. this person is worth keeping as a friend because... or if I strengthen my relationship with this person, others will like me more etc)
I also often feel as if my life is playing out sort of like a movie, and someone is watching. I feel disconnected with others and invisible.
Do I have depersonalization disorder, or could these just be symptoms of depression?
Thanks!

Hello allieb257, welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to enter the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.

Unfortunately we here cannot diagnose you, but I can tell you that what you describe is not typically associated with depression or depersonalization disorder. It would be best to bring these concerns up with a therapist. Even if you can't attach a label to it, it is certainly worth looking into and working through.