Yeah. I used to say when it gets low to wait for it to come around on the jukebox again. A lot of younger people have never seen one. Also, records get changed out. Therefore, it may not come back around. Analogy busted.
I do say it's an infinite playlist, with themed parts together in spots, but overall on random. I know I don't have control of it, but I can try to manage symptoms. I'm tired of symptoms like these. I almost want something to make me not feel anything and not want to, so I could be free of the lows forever. I almost am willing to sacrifice everything I could ever feel so I don't feel low. I know from past med experiences that it's likely I'd be stabilized say p-off or depressed. Those are the only two places where my mood never changed until the med did