((((((((sunny))))))))) yeah, i did get to that point with one t. bt i never gave her all the pieces. i divulged very little - her concept of my experiences are pieced together by what I *didn't* say.
i'm just scared. no, i can't fall apart - i have too many responsibilities, and if i crumble, so will everything else. i can't give over control. i'm all there is left - no one will sweep up all the pieces... they'll just blow away into the dust.
grrrrrr i want to get into chat and not be alone, but the computer just refuses.