Very high anxiety today. I found a job I wanted to apply for - the ad was pretty unconventional so I figured they’d be ok with an unconventional applicant. However the hours won’t work for me. I won’t be back in time to pick up my son. If my brother hadn’t just had a baby I could ask him to pick him up three days a week but I can’t do that now. I’m going to have a lot of trouble finding a job that fits my schedule. Aftercare only runs until 5:50pm. My mom works until seven three days a week. I don’t have anyone else to help me. I’m discouraged.

I haven’t heard back from hr for my current job regarding intermittent fmla. I’m thinking they are not going to approve. I can’t make it through 4.5 months without being able to take a day off. It’s just not happening. I’ll make it maybe a month. Then I’ll be right back where I was, super stressed and depressed.

I’m going to snuggle with my weighted blanket for awhile. It will help me keep calm.